A True Confession

I have found that throughout my life it has been hard for me to rely and put full trust in people. My thoughts are, I might as well do it myself and make sure it gets done. I will basically go to any measure I can in order not to have to ask people for anything, it can be as small as asking for a hand in picking something up, to just making sure I drive everywhere I go, to asking for people to lend me some money. I guess in truth it's just the fact that I much rather have myself fail then have other people fail. Maybe after thinking things through, I'm a control freak. But I really don't think I'm that crazy and overboard with it. But who knows. I believe in this aspect, the Lord is stretching me, especially with the whole YWAM thing. Because where does my support come from, from my family, friends, and acquaintances. So not only do I have to rely on the Lord and everyone else, I also have to come to terms with the fact that I can't do it by myself. And wow has the Lord been teaching, teaching, teaching, teaching. I have only had a few responses to my support letter as of right now, but those responses have been amazing. I have been sooooooooooooo blessed, I can't even explain. Everyday it's like the Lord bops me over the head, telling me that He really does provide, and that I need to quit worrying. A great verse I need to keep reminding myself of is this:
Therefore, my dear brothers, stand firm. Let nothing move you. Always give yourselves fully to the work of the Lord, because you know that your labor in the Lord is not in vain.
1 Corinthians 15:58